IT'S NOT WHAT I EXPECTED!
Living as a Master is so different from anything I ever expected. I’ve imagined enlightenment in many different ways and almost all of them had one thing in common: that at long last I would gain ultimate power over my own life.
To manifest money out of thin air. To have people flocking to hear what I have to say. To instantly heal myself and others. To drive as fast as I want and never get a speeding ticket. To teleport my body to anywhere I want to be without need of airplane or automobile. To manifest the perfect lover or the perfect dream home at will. To make the war-mongers and stupid people see the folly of their ways and make peace on Earth. And on and on. Who among you hasn’t imagined that being an enlightened master would include at least some of those expressions of power?
Living as a Master is so different than anything I ever imagined. The more I realize my enlightenment the more I discover that real mastery is not about gaining power or control over anything, including myself, and it’s not about healing or fixing my own or the world’s problems or even creating the life of my dreams. Rather, being a master is about ultimate allowing. It is about living my life with no power at all and allowing everything.
Living as a Master is so very ordinary. I go through life a lot like everybody else, with all the same needs and concerns and pains and joys. I eat and sleep and get tired and sore just like everybody else, and for now I still have to take medicine to keep my blood sugar in check.
I have debts and need a constant stream of money to pay the bills, to buy fuel and repairs for my camper-van home, and to pay for places to park when I get tired of the parking lots. My mind still freaks out sometimes too, like it did the other day when for the first time on this particular adventure I didn’t know where to go next.
Since I left what used to be my home in Albuquerque, New Mexico, last December, I always knew what my next destination was: Santa Fe to take care of some clients. Eugene, Oregon to deliver my beloved cat, Toby, to my former partner, because he hates travelling and he needs a home that doesn’t move.
The Oregon coast for a little ocean energy. Ashland, to visit my niece and nephew. Yreka, California, to have lunch with an old friend and fellow master. And then Redding, and suddenly I have no more plan. I don’t know anyone here and the city is not friendly to parking-lot surfers, and I don’t have a feeling for which direction to go from here. And to make matters worse, in the Shoud just before I got here Adamus yelled at people who live in their cars. Now what?
But even my mind is starting to get on board with my enlightenment, so the freak-out was very mild compared to times past. The fact is that I have a very nice home that serves this point in my life extremely well, even if it is on wheels, and it has the advantage of being able to park in many beautiful places. But where now?
The forecast was calling for rain throughout California and I had no one left on my list of people to visit in this part of the country, and I had a backlog of work to catch up on. Something inside said, Just stay here for a while.
Okay, but where? They don’t like people spending nights in parking lots here.
There’s a beautiful RV park down on the river.
Yes, but RV parks cost money!
So? This week you need a home.
So I went to the RV park and rented a space for a week, and the past several days of pouring rain have been a wonderful inner nurturing time with myself. In a couple days when my week is up I’ll either know where I’m going or I’ll pay for more time, but it doesn’t matter, for this is a beautiful place and above all else this journey is about spending time with me.
Living as a Master is the most extraordinary thing I have ever experienced. As I write this I see that living without power is also living without worry, for what’s the point of worrying when, by your own choice, you have no power and can’t do anything about it anyway?
When I make the conscious choice to truly allow I find that the worry fades away into a simple and trusting surrender, and then Grace comes and EVERYTHING works out. Everything I need is just there when I need it, and so much of what I want, too.
Life is becoming truly magical in such an ordinary way, and more and more of those miracles that I used to crave the power to perform just happen. Not on demand, but exactly when they are needed and in the most surprisingly ordinary of ways.
Living as a Master is not at all what I expected, but it sure is grand! There are getting to be quite a few people who know exactly what I mean and who will tell you all the same things in their own way, and if you want to hear more then you’ll want to check out Living Masters, our newest Awakening Zone show.
Every fourth Thursday host Mary Beth Shewan talks with real people, real Shaumbra, who are already living their enlightenment. Their stories are fascinating, poignant, often humorous, and so inspiring to anyone who is beginning to experience their own mastery, so don’t miss it!
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FROM THE ZONE By John McCurdy – Awakening Zone Coordinator